School! Yay! And other tots
Believe me, I’m not out of my mind nor do I have to tighten the screws in my head even more tighter. I’m glad that school would be starting soon. I kept myself pretty busy the last two weeks by watching movies. Welll okay, it’s not much but at least I got myself entertained. The time it took to download the movies were not entertaining though. I remembered that I was so bored that whenever the download bar progresses, I cheered. Yup, that was how slow my internet connection was or how bored I was. Whichever way you chose to see it, I was in boreville.
There are legal sites that you can download movies from you know. In addition to using peer to peer networks you could just head to AtomFilms , IFilms and a new one which I recently discovered, Crave entertainment. You could search for all of those in google. I’ll find out a way to put links to those sites from on this post later on.
To transfer or not ?
I’m still contemplating whether to transfer my blog from Friendster to here. I thought my so called friends would read or post comments but most of them don’t. And ofcourse the fact that Friendster only allows its members to post comments. Really unfortunate for the public as I the only reason I got to blog was to share my musings or ramblings with other people and also use it as a platform to encourage discussion on sensitive issues.
Do we care?
I mean is it apathy that we so called adults are having. Are we not concerned about the going ons(politically and socially) in our country and / or in our lives. I know many people who would just think of themselves and help themselves without regard to other people. They would put a pretention about helping others only if the victim oops ‘friend’ has something to give them. Happened to me before, so I guess I’m quite wary of making new friends. One thing I’ve learned is that when a person promises to help you, don’t count on it. He has to show it. Thank goodness I’ve been able to help myself so far. I tried a couple of times to ask so called friends to help but they did not help. So being self sufficient is important. I don’t have to rely on other people and it feels good to be able to do things on your own.
On matters regarding girl…
I’ve thought about it a couple of times. I mean where ever I look, there’s always a couple walking by. They seem to be oblivious to other people, basking in each other’s company. Appreciating the moment that they share. It’s pretty uncomfortable when you realise that you’re the only one who doesn’t have a girlfriend. You knew why you were here, in a foreign land to study. You have to work hard so that you can graduate early and do something useful that would reduce your parent’s financial burden. You want to believe that you have the world at your feet. But slowly niggling things starts creeping up from the aforementioned matters of the heart to things like finding a job. I kind of like it the current way. I mean there are thousands of things I would like things to be different but being single has its merits. I can concentrate better in my studies. I don’t have to worry about the other person and can do what I please. I can spend money for myself instead of wasting money on buying gifts for her birthday. Don’t have to remember countless of unnecessary dates just to show that I care about her. For instance, I just spent CAD 5 to buy a simple birthday cake for myself. I mean nothing beats having your family to spend your birthday but being in a foreign land, I guess this is some semblance of home. I also tend to keep myself busy if given the chance as there’s nothing much to do here in this place. The entertainment that is existent here are pubs or to the movies. They’re not worthy places to hang out as TGV back home is a much better place to just lepak.
Well, I’m not looking for a girlfriend as I’m not ready for the emotional fallout. It’s not just because I’m shy. I would attribute it to the emotional thingy. In the words of Mr Fantastic in the recent ‘Fantastic Four’, “There are to many variables”. Indeed there are.
So…
I’m in the age where I’m looking forward to what I can achieve in my life. I don’t really know where I’m going. I have plans and I want to execute them but I don’t know how. Insecurities are there and I just want to confront them. I’m awed but at the same time eager for the challenge. There are many new things in life that awaits me. I want to experience them, good or bad.
